Schange

“Life is not about any particular achievement or experience.  The most important task of your life is not what you do, but who you become.”

“The world badly needs wise and flourishing human beings , and we are called to bring God’s wisdom and glory to the world.  The truth is, those who flourish always bring blessing to other—and they can do so in the most unexpected and humble circumstances.”

“You are not your handiwork; your life is not your project.  Your life is God’s project.  God thought you up, and he knows what you were intended to be.  He has many good works for you to do, but they are not the kind of “to do” list we give spouses or employees.  They are sign posts to your true self.”

“Your spiritual life is not limited to certain devotional activities that you engage in.  It is receiving power from the Spirit of God to become the person God had in mind when he created you—his handiwork.”

I’m not sure what to write or how to start this out.  I have many thoughts especially about the above.  I must admit that at this point in my life I feel as though my hands are empty and the things I have always done the “spiritual life” things lay bare and empty before me.

 I have questions.  I have doubts that scare me.  I look at things I have always thought and ask myself why—which leaves me feeling unsure and terrified to look deeper.  I believe the problem is for several years I have drifted away from a foundation of scripture, more than several.  I am not sure how to find a new foundation.  I am in the land of rediscovery and I feel as though there is no map.  

More and more I have come to realize that the questions I have cannot be answered by anyone but me.  I have to search for them.  I have to search the scripture, know the scripture and ask Yahweh for guidance.  No one can tell me what my life should look like.  There is no pattern to follow given by others, no hail mary’s to be said.  It is me and a road ahead.

However I also recognized after reading the quote Jen posted, that spurred this all on, I will never succeed on that journey of spiritual self discovery without others to encourage me to continue the search.   We each have our own journey to make but we also have each other to help us get up and not quite when we want to

 Thank you for doing this with me.  I love each of you dearly and pray this is one of the sign posts to your true self.  I pray we each discover and put on “The me we have always wanted to be”. 

Love,

hil

A question that I would like to ask myself this week and honestly answer:

 Am I growing more easily discouraged these days?

Am I growing more easily irritated these days?