The List

Remember when I said I was questioning deep things.  Things I’ve always believed.  I have made up a short list of the things I need to study.  The things I am currently struggling with and I have included resources for said questions.  If there is anything additionally you can add please post.

The authority of scripture:

                (knowing the history, translations etc of scripture)

Why, what and how  prayer :

                reading a book on prayer by Ron Auch ( book by Philip Yancy after this) and prayingJ

Gays and Lesbian lifestyles:

                 scripture, find books that address the biblical response.  I am not satisfied with the information               I have and I really struggle with the stance many say I have to believe.  I know a lot of wonderful      people.  I don’t believe that I should hate or fear and I know that is not what the Bible says.  I need more.

Miracles

                 book written by C.S. Lewis and Craig S Keener ( focus on healing)

Heaven

                 what is it and do I really want to go?

Second coming

                (Daniel and Revelations) ask my theologian friends and professors for more resources.

The History of denominations. 

                A less imperative question but I do feel it is important to know the history of our faith and the   purpose and power of each denomination.

 I am going to begin with the most obvious the foundation of scripture because if I doubt this the rest is obsolete.  I have two friends who are deep academic theologians,  scholars and believers.  Both read  Greek  and Hebrew.  I am going to email them and ask for some resources.

A note: Three years ago I was feeling good I recognized the signs of growth and change.  However,  I would have very strong doubts at times and feel uncomfortable with them.   One day I felt as though Yahweh said to me, “ your doubts are fine, they mean you are not stuck.  I want you to doubt because it means that you are growing.” 

My problem: my study has not kept up with my devotion.  As my thoughts and ideas have broadened I have not gone deeper into an understanding of my foundation.  I know the list seems scary and there have been moments when I have feared I am in danger of not believing but I know the key for me after writing this and really looking at it is that I have neglected deep theological study.  As it is the foundation and I have developed a great deal from just believing what people tell me, a good thing.  I have to maintain a balance of study AND devotion both are paramount to a healthy belief system.

And thus one of my prayers is answered.  Yahweh has given me a roadmap and sisters to keep me from sitting in the ditch whining.  I know this is going to be uncomfortable  thanks for being the type of women who won’t coddle me but challenge me to keep going.

Love and prayers for each of you today

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Please be praying for us.  We are again attempting to start a family.  We told Kev’s mom a year ago we would have the gift she's always wanted for her next year on Mother’s Day.  I know Yahweh has a plan and I would really like for it to be me pregnant this Mothers DayJ.

Let me know how I can pray for you today.

Love,

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